Pops pt3

Today I was at lunch having a conversation with one of my friends and I heard your voice it scared me I thought u were furious at least it sounded that way when u called me  I turned around so quick looking for you not because I thought u were mad but because I needed reassurance, reassurance that I’m  always on ur  mind like ur always on mine, and the thing is I’m missing the best part of me when ur not around, and I’m looking for replacements cause my hearts so heavy so I keep giving it away cs it so much weight  thinking I’m ready but this was never what I needed,I hunger for love cs ima open wound that was never treated,  I was so okay with being disrespected blowing it over my shoulder cs I be in too deep I’m so sorry that u can’t see but all I ever wanted from u was that feeling , that feeling I feel when we’re together bonding and laughing that feeling I feel when you call my name at  softball games that feeling when someone says we’re twins I just want it bck that’s all I ever wanted , I just hope we never grow apart. - love jaida